God's Word is Reliable

The other day, I was reading Jim Martin's blog, A Place for the God Hungry. The article I read was titled "Your Concerns About Money". I enjoyed reading the article and the comments. My first thought was Luke 12:22-31, where Jesus tells His disciples, don't worry about what you'll wear or eat, because the body is more than clothing and food. God takes care of the birds and the flowers, how much more valuable are you to Him?

Ok, to begin with I don't think I should've responded. I certainly don't have a handle on money management. I've since realized I did it self righteously. I believe in God and His Word, which He spoke through His Son and the prophets. I'm just not walking as I should. I believe God has everything we will ever need, but first we must obey His Word.

I have a hunger for God and His Word, His Spiritual Truth. I hunger for His Knowledge, His Wisdom, and His Understanding. But my hunger is too often superceded by my own selfish desires.

But, with that said, here are two verses that I count on:

Isaiah 55:8-9

8 For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, saith the LORD.
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. KJV

Since God loves us and wants and has the very best for us, this is comforting. Typically the last thing we remember about ourselves is our last failure, the last thing we did wrong. Well, just knowing that God has begun a good work in us and will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ, Php 1:6, gives us hope, something to count on.

I believe my intentions in responding to Jim's blog were good. I was speaking God's Word and as said in Isaiah 55:11, His Word doesn't return unto Him void. This means God's Word goes where it's needed, and it touches someone's heart, whether they have a big life changing experience, or just some encouragement for the moment. His Word always succeeds.

Thank You Father for Your Truth.

God bless servant21

Can I Pray for You part 2

I want to share what I experienced tonight. I got off work about 22:00. I stopped by a convenient store to get some gas.

While walking in, I saw a woman sitting on the curb off to the side and she called me over. I went in and paid for the gas. When I came out I went and spoke to her. She asked for $6.00 so she could get something to eat at a fish place next door. I gave her $2.00 because I'm broke.

So, I went and pumped my gas, and I couldn't get her off of my mind. I believe the Lord told me to go and pray for her, so I did. I walked up to her and asked if I could pray for her and she said yes.

I squatted right in front of her and she held out her hands. This shocked me, because most people don't know or understand that laying on of hands is fundamental doctrine. It says so in Hebrews 6:2. Also, I've had the Lord put people on my heart to pray for before, and I'm always attacked by fear and sometimes I don't pray for them. I was greatly excited because this time I didn't succumb to fear. I did what our Father said.

So, I took her hands and started praying. I began by praising the Lord and asking for His direction. The whole time I was praying, she was loosening and tightening her grip on my hands. I felt like she was hungry for the Lord. Also, to know about laying on of hands, she must know God, at least some.

When I left, I couldn't stop thinking about her and my friend said something about how I get back what I gave. Yea God. I hadn't even thought about the fact that this was an offering.

Actually Jesus said in Matthew 25:36-40, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me.

How cool is that? The Lord was hungry and I gave Him money to by some food, because I did it for one of the least of these. Thank You Father. This was truly an exciting night because I got to experience a victory in the Lord.

I prayed for her and that's all I was asked to do. So, I can continue to pray for her if the Lord puts her on my heart. But the rest is up to her.

God bless servant21

Can I pray for you?

I was thinking about this girl I work with, she came to work the other day and looked really sad and alone. I asked her if she was ok and she said no, so I asked if I could pray for her and she said it wouldn't help.

Well, there was nothing more I could've done,so I let it go. She'd already decided that prayer wouldn't help. I guess if you don't know God or only know Him in a small measure, you don't know or understand how great He is or what He can and will do.

I hope I'll offer to pray for her again and I hope this time she'll let me, cause I know God would love to have her as His.

See, I sometimes have a problem doing what our Father says. Like when I get an understanding from the Holy Spirit to pray for someone, I'll immediately freeze up, I get scared. Sometimes I overcome fear and sometimes I don't. So, sometimes I do what my Father tells me to and sometimes I don't. This is not acceptable.

2 Tim 1:7 says, " For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. So, when I'm told to do something by our Father, I need to recognize who my Father is, by not allowing the spirit of fear to quench the Holy Spirit in me. I know what I'm supposed to do, but I still mess up.

As it says in Isaiah 55:8-9, His ways are not our ways and His ways are higher than our ways. I'm thankful for this, because every time I mess up, I can count on my Father. He's in control and knows what needs to be done and how much testing it'll take for me to overcome this present evil in my face.

So, all I can do is trust our Father, so when He wants me to pray for someone, I will. I'll simply rebuke the enemy and walk in the doonamis,and exooseah, power and authority, He's given me and speak to the mountain of fear and cast it into the sea, Matt 21:21. Amen.

God bless, servant21

I'm posting a journal entry

5.5.08

I haven't written in my journal in a couple of weeks. I guess I've let things get on my mind and I've dismissed writing. I believe it's good to write things down, at least to get rid of them.

Right now and for the last few days, I've had a lot of anger on me. Why? It's not any one thing, it's a collage of events, cool word. Right now I feel totally discombobulated, another cool word. And the reason for this, in my opinion, is because God isn't letting me have my way. Why does He have to be that way?

Well, this is a big question and I believe it could have many answers, though, there's only one righteous answer. If I choose to follow Him, I must sacrifice ALL of my ways, my desires, and my will, and choose to live by and follow His Will.

I've recently learned again, well actually I got a revelation. Jesus said in Mark 8:34, “Whosoever will come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.” I have chosen and am choosing to follow Christ, but so many times I don't want to deny myself, I don't want to take up my cross, I just want to get the blessings without any sacrifice.

I am so very greatly attacked with self righteousness, I get mad and angry because something doesn't happen the way I want. I'm upset because God isn't letting me have my way, and then rewarding me by saying, “Well done my good and faithful servant.” Who do I think I am? But this is, at times, my mindset, whether I'm aware of it or not. I'm aware of it now and I don't want it. I want to be righteous, I want to do what my Father says.

The revelation I got, that I just mentioned is, it's not what I can do, even when I do what He says, it's what God is doing in me. I can't do anything unless allowed by my Father. It's what He is doing, He has begun a good work in me and will perform until the day of Jesus Christ, Php 1:6.

Ok, after saying all of that, I've been wanting and trying to write something, to post in my blog, but I haven't been able to keep my head. The smallest things set me off. I have anger problems, which I've mentioned before, and this causes me to not think right and to shut down.

As much as I've written here, I don't know how much of it goes together or actually makes any since, but I've finally written something and I'm gonna post it the way it is. Also, I have this thing about being perfect, I'm a perfectionist, so everything I write has to be perfect, even though I make mistakes all of the time, look at my other posts. I'm gonna try and just write regardless of how it sounds or looks. I like writing and I have a lot of good stuff to write. I hope and trust you can look past the mistakes and enjoy what I write and, God willing, learn something.

I think I've written enough, I feel such an incredible release. Thank You Father. If I can get my computer to let me post this, I will.

God bless y'all.
Servant21

PS This started out being a journal entry, merely to release. How cool is our Father. He let me write just to write and it turned out to be something I can post.